Friday, September 30, 2005

i was woken up by a prank call this morning. wth! i dun want to get into the details. then after i got up, i couldn't fall asleep again. argh...
anyway, out of no reason, i started to miss the kids i got to know through interact club in my jc days. frankly i joined interact club cos i thought it will be quite slack. i joined it without any good reason and i feel sorry for that. but i was glad tt i joined it cos tt's how i got to know those great kids. usually when i do something, i want to make the best out of it. maybe it's due to my perfectionist nature which some of my friends can't stand. so when i tutor these kids, i gave it my best shot. it's just unfair and immoral to do it anyhow. i saw some people just played with their handphones or just 'touch and go' or spent most of time doing other stuff instead of interacting with the kids. i feel like giving them a piece of my mind. i didn't know i will build a bond with them after i went there every week. some of the kids were really naughty and it's amazing how i can still manage to get along with them at the end of the day. and then they will just come by and talked to me when i was there teaching other kids. i feel really touched and appreciated. so naughty kids are actually kind by nature ok. they will treat u equally well if u treat them sincerely. that's what i learnt most. during the farewell which is close to our finals, many people didn't turn up. i think cos the attendance was not taken into consideration. i despised those people seriously. it was great fun cos we got to play with the kids. and then we gave them some chocolates as farewell gifts. then when we were about to go, there was one kid who didn't want to say "byebye" to us. he was one of the naughty kids whom i got along really well with so i really hope we could have a good farewell. but he was angry with something which i have no idea what. i was sad tt he didn't say "byebye". and i felt bad 'abandoning' them cos they were great. i told them tt i will go back after the finals but i didn't keep my promise. and i feel tt i let them down. they have most probably forgotten about me now but even if tt's the case, i still have this urge to know how they are doing right now. i feel tt i have this responsibility to go back and ask the director(dun remember what pple used to call him) about their well-being. to make me feel relieved ba...

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caryn out
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