Saturday, July 29, 2006

yesterday, i had the 6 hours pracical. anthea went through the clinical assessment that we had at the end of last semester. initially, i didn't mind how much i get since the score is already above average. then i compared my marks with di's coz we both had Corrine as our demonstrators. and i realised she deducted a point from each of my techniques without any particular reason. and i asked anthea about it but she told me that no reason is given. i was furious!! if i didn't make any mistake, how could she deduct marks away? if she did that to everyone, i won't feel angry but she didn't do that to Di. she should state some reasons to explain why she deduct marks away ba.. it will at least make me feel better and i will know what i did wrong. if not, i think that she deduct marks away because she doesn't like me. all along, i have a feeling that some demonstrators don't like me coz of my 'more aggressive' attitude :p. and now, that proves something. i seriously dunno what's wrong...
this makes me think of the incident that happened to me in sec 2. i dun remember the name of the teacher now(feel bad). i was accused that i didn't hand up my homework and was left standing.. and i remember he said something which seems funny to the whole class but i felt humiliated. and then i cried.. and serene accompanied to the toilet. then i wrote something in my book to defend myself but before i hand it up, i erased everything away. however, when i got the book back, the teacher apologized and he wrote something in my book. he managed to read what i wrote even though i erased it away. i was touched and i feel bad about it.. from then on, i think that he is a great teacher. and i will forever remember what he did.(but i forgot his name! ly, syl help me.) actually, i'm surprised at my own courage sometimes. hah.

anyway, i think i'm really childish at times.. especially in handling some problems. my heart will rule over my head and i stop thinking before i act or say anything...

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caryn out
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