Wednesday, August 16, 2006

i thought that everything will be back to normal. i tried to return back to my usual self today. i thought that i can do this but those words kept coming back to haunt me. i tried to push it aside. i tried to put on a happy face even though i felt miserable deep inside. i feel tt i should stay away from anyone but then again i dun want to be alone. i feel tt no one likes me, no one needs me anymore.. but the sad truth is that i still need everyone. today has been really miserable. i can't handle it. i have tried.. i dun want to ruin anyone's day.. if i did, i didn't do it intentionally. pls pardon me. i felt really insecure so my sense of self-defense has got up to an extreme level today. although my birthday is coming, i dun feel happy at all. i'm afraid that i will ruin my birthday and ruin everyone's day as well. i dunno what's coming over me. if it's pms, i hope it will be over soon. stop torturing me.

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caryn out
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