Saturday, September 02, 2006

i had mentioned previously that i have always enjoyed Fridays but yesterday was different... it was devastating... maybe i have exaggerated a little. but at a point in time, i really felt that way. my confidence has plunged to the lowest point. i felt humiliated and was almost to tears but i restrain myself. i can't cry in front of a 2nd year!! although i have always known tt he is very strict, i wasn't prepared for what was to come. i dun like the look he gave me. i dun like the tone he used to tell me off. i know i was at fault for not revising well, for not working hard to prepare myself for the clinical assessment. but that was a bit too much ba? his tone was even stricter than his usual self. what was that for? i can tell that he was disappointed in me but that was my first full clinical practise eh.. and i tried not to refer to notes. i was really nervous ah.. i was so nervous that i didn't sleep well the previous night. he has no right to ruin my confidence right at the start of my assessment!! so i was in no mood to carry on... so i just anyhow do... and then my patient was so apologetic at the end coz he thought that he has caused me so much problems. that's because kwang was too harsh!! next time i should just cry so he will know that he is too harsh. he can deduct my marks away but why use that kind of tone and look? my father doesn't even use that tone on me now. i'm no longer a child anymore!! i have my pride and dignity.

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caryn out
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