Friday, October 13, 2006

my mood turns from good to bad today. in the morning, before we had the letter/report writing workshop, anjou marked our attendance. then when it was my turn, he asked if i was the quiet kind of person. ??? dunno what he really means so i just said 'ya, sort of'. and he said 'ok i will try to make u a noisier person.' i asked juju why he said that coz i have never spoken to him before so he wouldn't know me. juju said maybe coz my voice is very soft. i didn't realise my voice is so soft that someone will take notice of it.. geez.. i got to learn to project my voice out loud.. but it's very hard.. i'm so used to it that i'm not concious that my voice is too soft. how how how??? but the workshop was alright.. just that he is too fast and i'm really lousy in writing formal letters.. so can't really catch him.
then i had my 2nd yr patient. kwang was one of the supervisors but he wasn't the one assessing me so i dun have to use trial frame. but corrine also asked the others to use trial frame. anyway, kwang was allocating 2nd years' into our lanes and he actually remembered my previous patient(the one i had when he was my supervisor) coz he asked me 'u have assessed him before right?' and then he allocated another guy into my lane. that means that incident has created such a deep impression in his mind -_-!! anyway, i think both of us were still pretty awkward coz we didn't talk like we did in the past. nvm la..
anyway, my patient was easy-going and it's easy to work on him. throughout the assessment, we were just being sarcastic to each other and it was really funny. then after i did ret on him and before i removed the working lenses, he was doubtful and asked if that's my final result coz it was blurry. i'm quite confident with my ret so i answered him confidently that no, that's not the final and i said to him that he is suspecting my ability. i wasn't very sure that i have my ret correct but i just dun like pple to underestimate me. and then after i removed the WD lenses, he was very impressed coz his vision was pretty gd. after my monocularly refraction, it also turned out that my ret was pretty accurate. luckily my ret was accurate or else i will be so embarrassed. phew~~ i did full BV workup on him coz he complained of DV when he was tired. it was alright. before he went off, lauren said tt i did well(most demonstrators like to say gd gd..) then my Px also said yah, she is very good. wahaha.. i feel so happy :p among all my 2nd year patients, i did the best today and had the most fun. by the way, his name is also kevin....
i was in a really gd mood but it didn't last long. since i haven't tried trial frame before, i wish to try it on yishen in the afternoon. it's really hard!! i made many mistakes and i think i was in a really big mess. trial frames sux big time. have to go back M'sia to practise using trial frame. anyway, he is really nice to let me use trial frame on him so i just tried my best to speed things up. then my ret sux big time this round. it differs far too much from subjective Rx. trial frame is seriously not my cup of tea. but i was expecting that kind of result since i found out from many people that it's really hard to use trial frame.
anyway, after i am done, i was in a bad mood. i feel rather upset and lonely... i dunno why coz i was in a good mood this morning.. i guess it's pms again.. sigh..

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caryn out
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